1. |
Grey
03:49
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It feels so far away and like it happened yesterday
I know things will look up, but for now the sky is grey
And every day that passes you wanted to move on
Sometimes the feeling lapses but it's never really gone
And by the way, there's something that I've been meaning to say
I've been taking my time
Finding the words that will
Fully convey how I feel
I've been losing my mind
This is my one chance to show
What's in my heart is real
So much time has passed, the weeks and years went by so fast
For the first time I'm alone, but I know it's not the last
No matter what else happens I never will forget
The unabating passions and how I handled it
This time today, I'm on the path and for you I won't stray
I've been taking my time
Finding the words that will
Fully convey how I feel
I've been losing my mind
This is my one chance to show
What's in my heart is real
I've been taking my time
Finding the words that will
Fully convey how I feel
I've been losing my mind
This is my one chance to show
What's in my heart is real
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2. |
Sorry Wasn't Good Enough
04:10
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I can't hold on to the helm of this sinking ship
One more time I can't take much more of this
Still I wonder why, still I want to know
From the start of this, was there ever any hope?
Was it jealousy or fear that brought you here?
Can you tell me what you want and make it clear?
Meet on middle ground, I don't know where
From the bottom looking up you'll see me there
Sorry wasn't good enough to right so many wrongs
I know the rest, so save your breath, you'll need it when I'm gone
If you ever find another one to bite the bait next time
Don't come to me to help you out
Your concerns are no concern of mine
I can't hold on when you never let it go
All this time I thought by now you would have known
Still I wonder why, still I want to know
From the start of this, did you ever feel at home?
Was it jealousy or fear that brought you here?
Can you tell me what you want and make it clear?
Meet on middle ground, I don't know where
From the bottom looking up you'll see me there
Sorry wasn't good enough to right so many wrongs
I know the rest, so save your breath, you'll need it when I'm gone
If you ever find another one to bite the bait next time
Don't come to me to help you out
Your concerns are no concern of mine
I can't forget some of the things you've said
But I'm trying for the rest of my life to get
The rest of you out of my head
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3. |
The Greater Good
03:49
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Yeah I'm sick and fucking tired of being sick and fucking tired
Of wading through the blood after all the shots have fired
Do you really think your guns are more important than our lives?
Every time we fail to act on this, another child dies
But it's all about you
Do you even sleep at night?
When every day you take up arms
And in the streets you fight
To maintain the norms
Of violence and broken homes
Your lack of any moral code
It chills me to the bone
Yeah I know what you're thinking yeah your rights are on the line
But it isn't how you see it no it's not so black and white
Your life and liberty are threatened every single day
Not by socialists or government, but ignorance and hate
It's not about you
Whether you feel safe at home
Despite the sound of bullets tearing
Through the flesh and bone
Of the ones you love
The ones you might call family
I don't know if this sticks with you
But it fucking sticks to me
There's a greater good and it's sinking
Under the weight of citizens not thinking
It's not about you
Whether you sleep safe at night
I'm talking about parents of the
Kids who lost their lives
Their pain endures
I know it never really ends
There's nothing I can say to you
To ever make amends
But we have to try
Just for once to do what's best
So no one else is forced to see
Their child laid to rest
Yeah I'm sick and fucking tired of being sick and fucking tired
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4. |
No One There
03:48
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You think it makes no sense, but do you understand?
You think the weight of the world rests atop your hands
I can open up your eyes, just let me show you how
Don't stop to hold your breath, we're going under now
You say you wanted more
So what has it all been for?
Am I alone in this race, where did everyone go?
Back to their comfortable homes, yeah
When did hope and resolve become my only friends
It's like I've been here before, can you show me more?
I've seen enough to know you've only got one shot
There is no second chance, try not to miss your mark
I've looked into the sky to find someone who cares
I've seen the throne of god and there was no one there
You say you wanted more
So what has it all been for?
Am I alone in this race, where did everyone go?
Back to their comfortable homes, yeah
When did hope and resolve become my only friends
It's like I've been here before
Can you show me more?
I know I'm not the only one, and there will be more when I'm gone
It's just hard not to feel alone when all these norms just seem so damn wrong
Am I alone in this race, where did everyone go?
Back to their comfortable homes, yeah
When did hope and resolve become my only friends
It's like I've been here before (can you show me more?)
Won't you stand with me now, we're the only ones that
Can make a change in this world
TIme to do it yourself, don't wait for somebody else
I know together we can
Be something more
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5. |
The Implications
04:45
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She looks at the world
Through tear-stained eyes
She thinks to herself
"I wonder why"
The words on her lips
Say "I'm just fine"
But the words in her eyes
Say otherwise
And there's this feeling she can't shake
She wants to turn and walk away
There must be something more to say
She tries to shout and her voice breaks
And I'm tired of walking backwards
Can't go any faster
When you're getting close
You'll know it when you're there
Living for the implications
Can't change the situation
Life may be a game
But we won't always play fair
I hear what you say
But I'm not sold
I'll fend for myself
Across that threshold
He lowers his head
His eyes wide open
A blank stare falls
Where I used to stand
And there's this feeling I can't shake
I want to turn and walk away
There must be something more to say
I'll try to shout and my voice breaks
And I'm tired of walking backwards
Can't go any faster
When you're getting close
You'll know it when you're there
Living for the implications
Can't change the situation
Life may be a game
But we won't always play fair
As luck would have it
Luck doesn't have time for me
It's just a force of habit
When I'm somewhere I don't want to be
I want to know you're there
There to catch me if I fall
I want to know you'll hear me
So listen closely when I call
I hope you think of me
Every time you hear this song
If home is where the heart is
I've been away from home too long
And I'm tired of walking backwards
Can't go any faster
When you're getting close
You'll know it when you're there
Living for the implications
Can't change the situation
Life may be a game
But we won't always play fair
(I want to know you're there)
(There to catch me if I fall)
(I want to know you'll hear me)
(So listen closely when I call)
(I hope you think of me)
(Every time you hear this song)
(If home is where the heart is)
(I've been away from home too long)
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6. |
Scream
02:16
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If I dream, would you be there
When I close my eyes?
Away from all the troubles of
Our daily lives
If I dream, would you be there?
Could you take me back home?
Or would I wake from dreaming to find
I'm still alone
I dream cause I can't do this on my own
If I scream, would you hear me
No matter how far
Away that I'm standing
From where you are?
If I scream, would it matter?
Could I make the walls come down?
Or would I end up shouting with
No one around?
I'll scream until the walls come falling down
Yeah I'll scream until the walls come falling down
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7. |
Laid to Rest
03:54
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They say growing up is easy
I guess I've done alright
I never would have made it on my own
The wisdom of a father
In the dark, a guiding light
A place that I will always call my home
And time won't change who I am
It'll change what happens
And that's what shapes us in the end
A lesson in life I was taught
Advice from my father
To live the days I will spend
He said go alone
It may seem tough but I know you'll pull through
The storms, crashing waves, torrential rains
And when it's through
You'll find there is nothing you can't do
You never cease to amaze me
And I'll always be proud of you
We watched the sun climb higher
Til it reached the peak of day
From there there's only one place left to go
As the days were wedged between us
I could feel you drift away
The footprints covered up by sheets of snow
And I thought I knew what was best
So I cut the lifeline and severed all my ties
Everything that I knew
All the truths that I held
Were nothing more than empty lies
So I'll go alone
Life is tough but I know I'll pull through
The storms, crashing waves, torrential rains,
And when it's through
I'll do what I never thought I'd do
Take one last look at home
Make a new life of my own
Can you hear me calling your name?
From where I am not, nothing's the same
The foundations have shifted beneath
From where I stand, trying to regain my feet
Laid to rest
Things in life all have their place and time
I've been told
Guess the things and places were getting old
So it goes
The chapter ends but the story just begins
And I can't wait to see
What's in store for me
He said go alone
It may seem tough but I know you'll pull through
The storms, crashing waves, torrential rains
And when it's through
You'll find there is nothing you can't do
You never cease to amaze me
And I'll always be proud of you
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8. |
Denounce Your Gods
03:04
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I'm here to eradicate
Those who would indoctrinate
A false love that's based on hate
I won't back down or capitulate
You won't admit you're wrong
You've been around for far too long
It's time to put you back
Where you belong
I don't want to validate
All your bigotry and hate
And you say you want to
Save me from myself
I'm afraid I'm too far gone
I'll never pray to a god
That would damn me so just
Leave me to my hell
Our father who never came
The hallowed take thy name in vain
Two thousand years I'd say is
Far too long for you to reign
There are no god-given rights
No reason for you to fight
And sill you murder in the
Name of Christ
I don't want to validate
All your bigotry and hate
And you say you want to
Save me from myself
I'm afraid I'm too far gone
I'll never pray to a god
That would damn me so just
Leave me to my hell
You're all blinded by a lie
And you'll never see this plight
For what it really is
A blood-stained cry for peace
All together now one voice
Because we're left without a choice
We will shout for war
And bring you to your knees
Fuck you
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9. |
Come Alive
06:01
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Medicate, alleviate, disintegrate all hope
Silence comes, as it often does, at the end of a joke
I know the way, but you can't stay, cause you're bound to come undone
Douse the flames, we've done this once before
You've known it from the get-go
Where the road would end, and again and again
I would always follow
None the wiser before, but this time
I'll watch you come alive
See the words like venom on your lips
God knows I've tried
To see that it wouldn't come to this
But you're on the other side
Of the gun you've always fired
And there's nothing I can do
Even if I wanted to
Navigate through what you hate, ask this to yourself
Would you ever wish what was done to you on somebody else?
I know the pain, but you can't say that what you've done is justified
We've all got anger somewhere deep inside
You've known it from the get-go
Where the road would end, and again and again
I would always follow
None the wiser before, but this time
I'll watch you come alive
See the words like venom on your lips
God knows I've tried
To see that it wouldn't come to this
But you're on the other side
Of the gun you've always fired
And there's nothing I can do
Even if I wanted to
Was there ever more to say
Before the tide pulled you away?
Before you made it very clear
That there was never something here
Honestly, I'm not surprised
The passion's faded from my eyes
Haunted by your waking ghost
But gone when I needed you the most
And I fought these battles day and night, every time I was alone
But still I left on all the lights so you could find your way back home
I was never one to fight, but I guess it's all you've ever known
But I wish that you were on my side, cause that's a side you've never shown
You've known it from the get-go
Where the road would end, and again and again
I would always follow
None the wiser before, but this time
I'll watch you come alive
See the words like venom on your lips
God knows I've tried
To see that it wouldn't come to this
But you're on the other side
Of the gun you've always fired
And there's nothing I can do
Even if I wanted to
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10. |
One Day
04:17
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It's a long way home
I don't feel like walking
Or waking up under this roof
A long day ahead
A longer night behind
We felt like we were fireproof
I was always in the wrong
I couldn't see it for so long
I guess that I should make amends
I told you to start the car
But we didn't get to far
At least we fought until the end
I always knew
That one day, I'd have to face the facts
But I never thought that it could
Be so hard
I always knew
That one day would have to be the last
That doesn't make it easier, no
So long ago
It doesn't quite feel real
Do you think that we lived it right?
Does it matter now?
Now that we can't go back
Can we pretend we can just for tonight?
They'll tell you to live and learn
From the experience you earn
But there's a part that gets left out
Whether you like it or not
What you get is what you've got
As the days fill up with fear and doubt
I always knew
That one day, I'd have to face the facts
But I never thought that it could
Be so hard
I always knew
That one day would have to be the last
That doesn't make it easier, no
I'm tired of having to be strong
When every day feels like I'm doing something wrong
I'm tired of having to be strong
Please just let me sleep, I've been awake too long
There's times when I swear I hear your voice
When I lay down at night and silence all the noise
Never more than just a whisper on the wind
But what it means to me to think of you again
It's a long way home
I guess I better start walking
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11. |
Stretch Marks
06:56
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It's so cold out tonight
Are you waiting for daylight?
And these walls will never speak
Of the countless things they've seen
And your heart will never tell
How to put an end to this hell
And I don't have the strength
To carry this with me
And I don't have the will
To be what you want me to be
I'm just a face in a photograph
On another page in your book
You don't think twice
At the mention of my name
I'm just a word that rolls off your tongue
With the bygone stories you tell
And all the lies
Do they keep you warm and sane?
Some things never change
And I've been told that everything
Has a purpose but don't you think
That there is more to our lives
Than trying to see through closed eyes?
And I don't have the strength
To carry this with me
And I don't have the will
To be what you want me to be
I'm just a face in a photograph
On another page in your book
You don't think twice
At the mention of my name
I'm just a word that rolls off your tongue
With the bygone stories you tell
And all the lies
Do they keep you warm and sane?
Some things never change
I'll never understand why it hurt so bad
When we had no idea at all
I hope you understand, darling I'm not mad
I just wanted to give you all
And I can't change the past, there's nothing I can say
To mend the wounds, but I'm sorry
I understand at last, there's nothing you need to say
The blame is mine, and I'm sorry
Some things never change
It's so warm in this room
And I can't stop thinking of you
I'm just a shade of my former self
Blinded by a lie, never once thought twice
That you could ever feel the same
The careless words, they roll off my tongue
The false assumptions I've made, I can't take back
They must have caused you so much pain
Now all I want is a second chance
To show you how I care, what you mean to me
I'll never let this go
No matter what, I'll be there for you
For as long as you'll keep me around
Or until the end, and there's something you should know
You're my everything
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